Hello Lovely People!
Ok, I know this is being posted on Sunday, but to be fair I DID write it on Friday, just haven't been able to post it. It's been a beautiful weekend and I've been too distracted by the sun :)
Five Minute Friday's were created by Lisa-Jo Baker, this week's submission are here! Basically you get a prompt and write about it for five minutes, no editing, no going back. This week's prompt: Broken
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Broken: A Short Story.
He was never afraid of being locked up in a jail or a cage. He never really feared anything. If anything, he got a kick out of the idea of being held somewhere. He liked to imagine that he was an adventurer in a far off land, caught while saving a damsel in distress. Sometimes he himself was the damsel. Other times he would imagine exploring the wilderness to find undergroud caverns filled with gold and booby traps Even other times he would be a trapped evil master mind, plotting is escape and world domination.
Until last year.
Now he dreams of walking outside on a bright sunny day, playing with his dog. Of going to his school, passing notes and doodling on his desk. Of hanging out under the steps with his best friends, dreaming of the future and the hottest girls. He even dreams of being bullied, getting beat up or kicked. Anything besides his bedroom, and the hospital bed that replaced his own. Anything besides the reality that he will never move again after the car crash. Anything besides the fact the he is broken, both inside and out.
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Ok, that was a little dark, but still hope it serves a purpose.
Till the next post, keep on smiling!
Sunday, 31 March 2013
Sunday, 24 March 2013
Weekly Bits of Awesome: March 18-24
Hello Lovely People,
To try and counterbalance my icky thoughts and feelings, I've decided to make a list of all the awesome things that happen during the week (a la Book of Awesome). This can be an effective tool against anxiety as it makes you remember all the good things that happened even if you were feeling crappy. Life can still be fun even if your feeling low.Weekly Bits of Awesome:
- Skipping class to go walk out on the jetty with friends during the first real sunny day of spring. We saw 7 bald eagles and some awesome rare ducks!
- Discovering the joys of living in a city that has cherry blossoms! They really are gorgeous!
- Boyfriend getting a BBQ and inviting the pals over for the first BBQ of the year, nearly burning the corn on the cob to bits.
- Discovering the joys of putting smoked salmon on Eggs Benedict.
- Discovering the joys of "Good Rats" by Dropkick Murphys, loves me some Irish style drinking music even if I don't drink that much (song here)
- Writing my first draft of my comedy webseries pilot.
- Discovering that outside of Science World in Vancouver there is a awesome machine that just transports balls up and down making cool music, almost like a Rube Goldberg Machine. It's hard to explain but it was really cool.
- Speaking of Rube Goldberg machine's, rediscovering old music I loved as a teen, such as Honest Mistake by The Bravery (song here)
- Making a candle out of an orange with my room mate (it's just the orange peel and olive oil, instructions here)
- Finding out my retired parents have finally bought the car they've been wanting for years and have saved so much up for.
- Discovering that Astrid Kircherr is still alive (pictured to the left). She was engaged to Stuart Sutcliff, who originally played bass with The Beatles, I always found her to be such a cool figure.
- Attempting to learn to knit and not totally failing!
- Hiking up Lynn Canyon with the boyfriend, discovering secret tunnels, walking in the freezing water, watching crazy Australians cliff jumping into said freezing water (to do when it's warmer), getting horribly lost and somehow ending up in a dog park, discovering flowers that look like they're from Mars, juuuuuust missing the bus home (and consequently eating at A&W ruining all callories burnt during the hike).
That was the awesomness of this week! Hopefully next week will be just as spectacular! If you had a particularly awesome moment this week, leave it in the comments!
Till the next post, keep on smiling!
That was the awesomness of this week! Hopefully next week will be just as spectacular! If you had a particularly awesome moment this week, leave it in the comments!
Till the next post, keep on smiling!
Saturday, 23 March 2013
Adventures in Knitting 2: It's something!
Hello Lovely People!
Well, it's something! No idea what yet, but it is, in fact, a knitted object! My first one since I was seven! ALL OF THE PRIDE!! Maybe I'll turn it into a beer cosy?
Next up, learn to purl! Then perhaps I can knit an actual thing! Fingerless gloves anyone?
Till the next post, keep on smiling!
(Wow, there's a lot of exclamation points in this post... ALL THE EXCLAMATION!!!)
Friday, 22 March 2013
Adventures in Knitting 1: Casting Off!
Hello Lovely People!
To deal with my anxiety (and life in general), I've decided to learn to knit. Many people find this a great way to deal with issues in life, as well as a practical way as you get the bonus of having some brand spanking new thing afterwards. Knitting is also something I've been curious about for a while, half because it would be a cool thing for gifts and half because one never knows what skills you might need should an apocalypse occur :p. I also have a fond memory of being seven and (with extreme help from my Nana) knitting a dish cloth for my mother for Christmas, a dish cloth that I'm pretty sure she still has never used because of sentimental value <3! Knitting always seemed like a soothing, calming thing.
Aww hell was I wrong!
I've been at this for almost 2.5 hours now, 2.5 hours which could have been used to do practical things like home work or eating dinner. To be fair, not all of these hours were spent trying to knit, large portions were spent procrastinating, searching knitting videos, getting confused with these videos and stabbing my couch with the needles. And what do I have to show for it? A freaking 28 rows of stitches, that's what!
To deal with my anxiety (and life in general), I've decided to learn to knit. Many people find this a great way to deal with issues in life, as well as a practical way as you get the bonus of having some brand spanking new thing afterwards. Knitting is also something I've been curious about for a while, half because it would be a cool thing for gifts and half because one never knows what skills you might need should an apocalypse occur :p. I also have a fond memory of being seven and (with extreme help from my Nana) knitting a dish cloth for my mother for Christmas, a dish cloth that I'm pretty sure she still has never used because of sentimental value <3! Knitting always seemed like a soothing, calming thing.
Aww hell was I wrong!
I've been at this for almost 2.5 hours now, 2.5 hours which could have been used to do practical things like home work or eating dinner. To be fair, not all of these hours were spent trying to knit, large portions were spent procrastinating, searching knitting videos, getting confused with these videos and stabbing my couch with the needles. And what do I have to show for it? A freaking 28 rows of stitches, that's what!
Haven't even been able to actually do the knit stitch yet! I've tried, but I can't understand the freaking stitch! I think I'm getting better, last time I got to 15 stitches before something went wrong and I pulled all the yarn off the needle. But I'm too frustrated with the friggin' thing to try it again right now. Perhaps tomorrow I'll have better luck. On the plus side, after starting over 3 times now, I've gotten very good at long tail casting off! LOOK AT THAT ONE ROW! It's beautiful, is it not? Maybe eventually it will be a rectangle someday!
Till the next post, keep on smiling!
Five Minute Friday: March 22, 2013
Hello Lovely People!
Wow, I’ve had a blog for like, 5 minutes and I’ve
already found a fantastic challenge, why have I not blogged before now?!
Awesome! Five Minute Friday's were created by Lisa-Jo Baker. You write for five minutes about the given subject, unedited, anything you can think of. Great fun, join in if you can! Five Minute Friday Details Here!
Five Minute Friday
on: Remember
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Remembering is really scary for me right now. I keep on getting fearing that I’m going to confuse my dreams with memories and that I’m going to
make up memories for my head. That’s how confused I’ve been lately. But when
this happens I always try to remember the things that I could never have made
up, and the things that I will never forget. Things like:
I remember when I was twelve there was a lost beluga whale
out in the bay. I remember petting it and it spraying water up on us. I
remember being really sad my mom wouldn’t let me ride it.
I remember going to Australia for the first time, being amazed
just looking at the sky and realizing how different the world can be yet we all
have the same sky.
I remember finding Saturn in my telescope in Grade 8,
completely by accident. It was one of the most profound and beautiful moments
of my life. I started at that planet for over an hour.
I remember moving out into University and crying every
single day for the first month.
I remember eating an ice cream cone last week with my
boyfriend on a viewing platform underneath the big Q outside Lonsdale Quay. I
remember being so tempted to drop the cone in the water to see how big the splash
would be.
I remember when we put down my first dog, and how I was too
scared to be in the room with her when she died. I still regret it to this day.
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That's all for now, folks! Till the next post, keep on smiling!
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That's all for now, folks! Till the next post, keep on smiling!
Let's Try This Again
Hello Lovely People!
Sooooo... I'm starting a blog. Again.
I've tried to start blog's many times before. This one might end up in the same place that all the other's did, in the dark forgotten corners of the internet with the half baked live journal pages and MySpace. Or maybe I'll actually follow through with it this time. Maybe it'll even get views, who knows! The important thing is that I'm trying.
I've been going through a harder time than normal lately. Mostly because I've finally been diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I'm pretty sure I'm OCD too, (but this isn't confirmed). And it's hard, super hard, to come to terms with this. Especially when it's been going on for so long. I've been having the worst thoughts and feelings for almost as long as I can remember and just thought I'd have to live with it. That I was a horrible person and deserved to have these horrible thoughts brought upon me. But I'm not a horrible person. I'm really not. Now I just have to believe that. Which might be the hardest part of all.
I want to use this blog as a way to vent my thoughts, fears and hopes about life and these conditions. I'm on a pill and doing some therapy, however I don't know if that will be enough. I need to feel like I'm using these conditions to help other people through their own issues. So this blog will hopefully turn into my diary/story about dealing with anxiepression (new word!), and hopefully this story will be useful to you! I hope that whoever you are that has stumbled upon this blog, be it by accident or on purpose, that you can use it to relate to your life. And that the things that I do to cope with life can help you in the way that you cope with yours. Because that's all we're trying to do in the end, isn't it? Find our own ways of living and dealing with what we've been given.
There's so much I want to say, but I'm currently finding it hard to get my thoughts in order, so I'll save it for a clearer day. I just hope that whoever might find this blog can use it to have some better days than I've been having lately! Keep on smiling, world, keep on smiling!
Cheers!
Alexis
Sooooo... I'm starting a blog. Again.
I've tried to start blog's many times before. This one might end up in the same place that all the other's did, in the dark forgotten corners of the internet with the half baked live journal pages and MySpace. Or maybe I'll actually follow through with it this time. Maybe it'll even get views, who knows! The important thing is that I'm trying.
I've been going through a harder time than normal lately. Mostly because I've finally been diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I'm pretty sure I'm OCD too, (but this isn't confirmed). And it's hard, super hard, to come to terms with this. Especially when it's been going on for so long. I've been having the worst thoughts and feelings for almost as long as I can remember and just thought I'd have to live with it. That I was a horrible person and deserved to have these horrible thoughts brought upon me. But I'm not a horrible person. I'm really not. Now I just have to believe that. Which might be the hardest part of all.
I want to use this blog as a way to vent my thoughts, fears and hopes about life and these conditions. I'm on a pill and doing some therapy, however I don't know if that will be enough. I need to feel like I'm using these conditions to help other people through their own issues. So this blog will hopefully turn into my diary/story about dealing with anxiepression (new word!), and hopefully this story will be useful to you! I hope that whoever you are that has stumbled upon this blog, be it by accident or on purpose, that you can use it to relate to your life. And that the things that I do to cope with life can help you in the way that you cope with yours. Because that's all we're trying to do in the end, isn't it? Find our own ways of living and dealing with what we've been given.
There's so much I want to say, but I'm currently finding it hard to get my thoughts in order, so I'll save it for a clearer day. I just hope that whoever might find this blog can use it to have some better days than I've been having lately! Keep on smiling, world, keep on smiling!
Cheers!
Alexis
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